summer lovin' !

the first year of high school is officially over & it's time for the fun to finally being! lolo's party was pretty fun. bonded with steph-knee & good food. i wish i had a way with words & were able to write some heart felt poem or song about the year, but i pretty much fail at that kinda thing. this is more of a reflection & random thoughts about this oh so crazy year. when i think about it... most people would say their freshmen year was super diff from jr high, but oa's case isn't quite like that. some firsts will always happen in freshman year though: my first real rally & my first real dance. i've grown to love & dislike my class of '12 in many ways, but they'll always be my extended family. with every year that goes by we learn more & more about each other. there's been people i still haven't met yet, which is kinda sad... but maybe next year? when i actually take the time to look around at the campus, i started thinking... i really am lucky to be here. i'm still not really sure if it's right for me, but i'm lucky to have this experience. some of the kids here are truely amazing and others are eh... but that's with every school, ya know? i think i got off to a bit of a bad start with beckett, but it's okay... i'm satisfied with my grade. morrissey's definitely one of a kind. there was never a dull moment in that class. although hale's class was filled with busy work & was a bit tackyish? at times... i did learn quite a bit about myself. now that i think about it, i'm glad i had the opportunity to take this class. p.e. will always be that class i dread going to... with those dang miles. jensen's pretty chill though. i don't mind having her a second year (: it's kinda weird... even though i did pretty badly in english this year, i think i learned the most from mrs. erickson. that woman is one of those amazing people i was talking about. i regret not trying harder in her class. matic's class was far from my favorite, but i loved the dorky moments. her FRA's!... yo, nrrr, something & click ! hah, i'll never forget 'em. & choir... choir's a class that you just can't leave without a good memory or two. choir rehearsals, show weeks, nothing but memories. overall, it's been a pretty chill year. i know this is a bit of a cliche, but i wish i had spent more time with the ones that mattered & forgot about all the other people that i won't even remember after high school. it's one of those 'you live & you learn' things. i have another three years with them though, thank goodness (: & to those the people that actually took the time to write about the moments we shared & personal stuff in my yearbook, thank you! i couldn't help but take a peak & them... i'll finish reading them tomorrow (:

_i never got the chance... & i kinda wish i did have the chance.
_the secret is... one of those things that fall under the 'some things really are better left unsaid' category.
_i lied when i said 'idk'... i do know.
_did you ever think that it was simply my way of making sure it doesn't happen all over again?
^^ && the funny thing is... the only people that will understand this are my friends & not the actual people. haha