out with the old .

i'm tired of my wardrobe. my goal for the summer is to limit my clothing purchases to items that i know for a fact that i'll wear for a long time. i tend to give into the fads that last for maybe a season or two at most & bury it under all my other clothes after that. exhibit a: plaid burmudas & tops. good thing i only got like three plaid pieces. i think i'll keep getting simple basic stuff, but i need to work on getting those pieces that'll stand out, yet go with many outfits. i'm one of those people that notice if people wear the same thing all the time. so summer time... i shall have another garbage bag or two or three of clothes ready to donate to good will. i must admit, i'm kind of stoked (:

choir audition tomorrow will be the death of me. planning on singing 'think of me' from phanton of the opera. i wanted to do the first song at first but i'm just incapable of reaching those high notes. maybe i'll get lucky and the person before me passes out or something... just kidding. but seriously, i might pass out or something myself.

after three years, i finally mustered up the courage to do it. not one, not two, but three years. heart was pounding out of my chest as i stepped into the room, but it wasn't as scary as i thought it'd be. & i didn't back out. just one step closer (:

5 days 'til spring break.

i've been ready for spring break ever since winter break ended. this week's gonna be one heck of a agonizingly long and slow one. monday: spanish skit & quiz in chem that i don't remember learning anything about, tuesday: choir auditions & 5-k in which i plan to pass out in & all nighter for english probably, & no doubt more poopy things in stored for me between wednesday&friday. BUT HEY, friday: hanging out with pauline after school, saturday: hanging with the mp girls, sunday: hanging with some cousins, & the rest of the week is MINE. no school, no worries, no nada. but first, i needa make it through this darn week.


& sadly, my walks around the neighborhood FAIL. haha
^ only steph, kel, savannah, & giuliana would understand this.

i want all of the below.

i realized i never wrote about my vegas trip. long story short [most because i'm too lazy to write about everythang]... we watched the vshow, ate at a yummy seafood buffet that also had green tea ice cream & a chocolate fountain, went to serendipity & shopped like crazy. oh & first time staying at the wynn & paris. semi-fancysmancy hotels... the kinds with phones in the bathrooms. haha did you know the wynn had an ihome in every room? that just called for karaoke nights. i doubt the people next door slept too well (:

to bring list:

- understuffs. haha
- semi-casual/formal dress for dinner + black cardigan.
- outfit one: gray tank with layers + black shorts + blue cardigan.
- outfit two: black pants that look like tights + long shirt/short dress.
- outfit three: vnecks + jeans. + extra tops.
- gray peacoat for night time.
- pajamas. monkey bottoms & super comfy oversized sweater.
- feety stuff: socks + brown flipflops, black flats, grey boots, converse.
- hygiene: toothbrush, toothpaste, floss, deoderant, lotion
- hair stuff: hairbrush, curler, straightener, shampoo/conditioner, bobbypins/hairties.
- moneeey.
- inhaler.
- phone + charger.
- ipod + charger.
- camera + charger.
- laptop + charger & HOMEWORK [stuff to write with & on!]
- snacks (:
- my pillow for the ride there & back. + blankey perhaps?
- dvds for the car ride.
- purses: brown side bag, gray purse, brown purse.

i think that's about it.. hopefully.
i always make 'to bring' lists everytime i go on a trip but i always lose them. now i can just open up this page & go through the list (: then again.. i could've just done it on word, but whatever. i'm excited. hehe. just found out my cousin & i are gonna be staying at paris hotel in our own room. it's gonna be my first stay there. hehe

TGI[almost]F! (:

boy am i thrilled the week's finally coming to an end, but i ain't so thrilled for three tests & a quiz tomorrow. but i'm focusing on the bright side. once school's out, i go home, get ready, & it's off to vegas for me (: as for now, gotta get cracking at the vocab & those four 10-5-1s...& currently working on the first set. haha i have quite a night ahead of me. see that picture to the left over there? i'll definitely be getting me some of that at serendipty (: & i gotta catch up on some shopping. my fingers are itching to spend a little of that chinese new year money.

as much as i despise phys. ed., i realized that i'll probably be gaining a kajillion pounds next year without it. i need a dog or something. haha and no, that's not random. having a dog would force me to do some walking everyday. buy me a puppy for my birthday, yeah? (:

don't kill me pauline. haha

because we're awesome and have nothing better to do with our time (:

waiting for the day when i can finally gather up the strength to honestly say that idgaf anymore.

things to do :

well, things to do/start in the near future at least...

- dadaa reunion.
- mp girls bonding [chuckee & cerritos].
- daily situps/crunches in morning or before bed.
- restyle hair.
- get the clothes i wanted from forever/urban.
- change up my hairstyles more.
- learn how to cook some simple meals from mommy.
- go back to tkd.
- actually finish knitting a scarf.
- cut back on the girlscoutcookies.
- clean my desks off & keep them that way.

there's something about the sunshine baby !

i've been in quite a blogging mood lately.

time for a daily spiel:

daylight savings can suck a toe, so can history for that matter. froze my butt off this morning but then the sun showed it's lovely face a little later (: i hate how jensen chose the first super hot day in months to make us run a monster mile even though about half the class was gone. other than that, i still think this week's going to fun. cahsee tomorrow & wednesday --> skipping health, choir, chem, & spanish. haircut SOMETIME this week i hope. playdate with sonya on wednesday. leaving for vegas on friday & coming back sunday. i go so much, but i'm not quite sick of it yet. i think i need this trip though. i need a temporary escape in life & just have some fun... away from academics, away from peers, just away. crepes @ paris, shopping all over, serendipity, & probably watching a show. can't wait 'til friday comes along.

So i spend most of the time feeling like I don't fit in but rarely step back to realize that I have a pretty decent life. i saw the top picture & it reminded me of one of my many new year resolutions that i completely forgot about. seeing this picture reminded me that i need to stop moping around, both inside & out. if i'm not being a grumpyass to people around me, then i'll probably be bottling things on the inside., just waiting to explode later on. but hey, i have things to be happy and content about. just need to remember those things when i'm feeling sorry for myself.

paranoia.

i think i've got a mighty case of paranoia. haha but then again, i personally don't think i'm THAT paranoid when it comes to certain things. i admit i can be at times though. is it too much to ask that my secrets are kept secrets & not shouted out to the world? i know better than to blab things out, but it's so damn hard to restrain. it gets to that point when i can't keep it bottled in anymore and explode to the closest friend within reach, trust aint even an issue at that very moment. don't get me wrong, i do love my friends. each and every one of them. at least the ones that try to be there for me. but the secret just penetrates it's way through, surpassing any resistance i have to keep it a secret. & sometimes, the person i tell isn't necessarily the best choice of a listener. the sad part is, once i'm able to let it out to that very first person, i can't stop. it feels so great to get the burden off my chest that my mouth continues to go on it's usual rampage. i never find it difficult to repeat the story over and over again. it's almost like each time, i prepare myself more for the next person i'm about to vent to & each time, i get better at telling the story. & to those that hear similar stories over and over again and don't even hear a name, i'm sorry but i love you for hearing me out (: guess after a while, i figured that once you let names out, everyone starts finding out... even if they don't go to the school. haha and no it's not paranoia, people really do find out and start talking smack. for those thinking that i should just forget those smack talkers, it's not easy for me. feels like the world knows and supports the other kid, leaving me out of the loop. it's better to just keep it on the downlow, you know?

you know it pisses me off when people ask me to do my homework, juust so they can copy it. i'll get to it when i get to it and IF i'm feeling generous, i'll help you out. but otherwise, be patient and stfu buttface.

brother's gonna come with me sometime this week or next week to finally initiate the plan. hopefully parents don't screw things up and say no.

i'm pretty stokedscaredexcitednervous&more about it though.

cravings .

Shaved ice & gelato ice cream topped with kiwi, strawberries, 'nanas, tangerines, & mochi. deeelish. Man, i needa get my butt over to mochilato soon.

went with my bro this morning to pick up some more cookies. i think i have a good stache of cookies for the year. i'm a happy camper (:

i miss these girls.

haven't seen them in a longass time. we're long overdue our monthly hangout :/ i think it's about time we had another dadaa sleepover/ karaoke/ souplantation/ shop 'til we drop days.

Mini Bucket list :

- finish memorylane.

- roadtrip [destination TBA].

- movie night/ sleepover.

- dingdongdang.

- cruise !

+ more to be added later !

caught being a dork.

so i was boogying to some tunes on my ipod, kind of like taylor swift in her 'you belong with me video,' with my hairbrush, pjs, & everything, when i realize the blinds on my window/door thing to the balcony was completely open. i think i might have traumatized the little korean lady a few doors down from me on her way to the trashbins. haha she looked at me & gave me that, 'kid's these days are out of control' looks. in my defense, i don't think i looked THAAAT scary in my karaoke mode. haha i was just having a bit of fun before i take a crack at the history book. fun's over, time for hw :/

why'd you have to go and say that, hm?
i was perfectly fine before i knew.
now i'm a confused mess asdjfkl; !
gosh darn you .

life's actually been treating me pretty well lately. parents have kind of chilled on the whole grades thing... minus a little mishap with zangle yesterday. i seriously wanna shank the zangle creator. i mean i don't mind zangle thaaat much, but those pesky weekly reports are killing me. & i have a collection of red gatorade bottles stored under my bed. one of the many upsides of my brother's new job... all the $0.25 bottles of gatorade you want. & i'm still waiting on that free rockband system he'll be getting in april. & he's helping me get through to the parentals about plan2010/11. & i have well over a year's worth of girl scout cookies stored to hold me over until next cookie selling season. another thing's been putting me in a pretty happy mood lately, but no need to go into details about that (: i sure hope nothing rains on my parade anytime soon.