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TWIZZY! (;

maan, i just love this weather. the sun's finally taking a break & letting the clouds do their thang. <-- hah, sounds so lame, i know. but like i said.. i love this weather! rain's great once in a while too... but i hate getting rain hair. i've been so mellow today. i've got my hot cocoa by my side with the remote & my laptop in hand. this is what i call the perfect saturday. i've got the house to myself & i'm free to do whatever. singing at the top of my lungs just never gets old... such a stress relieving day.

summer's getting closer & closer, yee! lately all my blogs have been about summer, but i just can't help it. i've got a slight...ly large case of SUMMER FEVER ! i needa get my butt to downtown LA. dress shopping, skinny jeans shopping, fabric shopping, shopping, shopping, shopping! lauren's gonna help me make some clothes. PLUS all the other thangs i mentioned in my past few blogs. whooohooo! hopefully this'll be a summer to remember.

spring tennis practice ended, finaaally. ah, i still have summer practice ahead of me... maybe? not really sure how much i still wanna do tennis. half the friends i thought were going to join bailed on me, sooo it's not exactly the most fun extracirricular. plus, i'm getting so dang dark! my foot & glasses tans are just plain ridiculous. JOIN PEOPLE, JOIN!

twelve more !

i screwed up on my counting last time. turns out there are even less days left. yeeeeeeahyuh! yoshi, jen, michelle, ivy, & i have quite a bit of an imagination when it comes to our end of the year potluck. the way we describe it, it's more like a feast, hah! or maybe we'll just go out for pho or something? then again.. there's no fun in that. i think i like the potluck idea more :D

dissecting things just ain't my thing. i don't know how tammy does it so calmly... she's like a naturally born surgeon. poor little piggies. they never got a chance in life :/ hopefully it won't stink up too much by monday. on another note, i love flag football! ahah. sounds weird coming from me, huh? i kind of had a shift in attitude since lacrose once i worked out the booty strategy. i'm actually loving my team. angie, kamille, tyler, jorge, & andi. it's like a miracle that i'm capable of throwing a few spirals. i think it'll be a good sport to end the year with. karinaballerina & angiebanangie are absolutely wonderful. i love you guys for putting up with me, hah (:

man, we sucked at the rally today. but no worries, we'll bust out the real '12 spirit next year. seniors sucked... shoulda been the juniors or sophs that won. totally fixed rally. another hell week's coming around the corner. the last one of the year :/ it's gonna be sad to watch the seniors leave... makes me realize that the end of high school really isn't that far away. three more years & we'll be out & about doing our own things. after hell week we only have what... another week to go? it doesn't quite feel like the end of the year though. maybe summer just hasn't sunk in yet.

HALE PRESENTATION TOMORROW. aaah, i'm freakin' out.

fifteeen more !

it's almost like a competition with you guys. there is just no winning on this one, is there? i swear it's practically like joint custody. whatever... & i think i'm about ready to give up on that other kid... unless i see it's worth it at all. summer's almost here & i plan on living it up with no stupid cares weighing me down. i hope a few of my friends can say the same. the top priority things on the to do list: memorylane, yogurt prince, & sing-along/karaoke days! i wanna meet twizzle dammit!

i'm actually getting alot from erickson's class lately. i mean most of the things i've always known about, but never really taken much consideration about it. i've realized i'm a different person around different people. i wish i could be that confident girl you see in the crowd that stands out because she's simply being herself, but i can't. i'm not sure where the lack of confidence comes from... fear? mean i would like to say i'm one of a kind... but then i realized i don't even really know what 'being myself' really is. environment influences man, i swear. with one person i act a certain way and with another person i act another way. it's one thing to stick with a friend & accept them for who they are but you gotta figure out that you can choose your own friends for a reason. why should i be called a bad friend if you're trying to get away from the bad eggs. maybe i don't like who i am around them...

senior ditch day was pretty... lamesauce, as hogan would say. class of '12, we're definitely gonna make ours one to remember. i'm excited for the rally tomorrow. i hear stephanie's gonna be in it. i'm gonna love teasing her about it, hehe (: my portfolio's gonna look like crap by the time senior year comes. i hear we're starting football tomorrow for p.e. this is like the one time i'm happy about it... kind of like an outlet for all this stress, ya know? i just wish it was tackle.

wipeout's finally back on! i can hear my sister laughing histerically downstairs... it's just too funny. man, i love this show (:

ah, back to bio & spanish.

my last post... geesh. i think two-three people took it the wrong way. if you didn't do anything... & i'm still acting normal around you... IT WASN'T YOU. hah, take a chill pill guys!

today was kind of a pre- summer day of fun with the cousins. junk food spree @ the 99 ranch market where i got like 15 bucks of candy & chips. yummm! we planned on working out at the gym but i was too young i guess, soooo we weren't allowed in :/ BUT luckily, i had a back up plan. we decided to change the plans & just head down to irvine spec for some good old bonding (: pink, kelly clarkson, jack johnson, & random songs all the way to & from. kind of had that road trip atmosphere. that one vallet guy was pretty dang cute. hehe (: the freaking fire alarm went off on our way to old navy. we didn't see a freaking fire... so instead of heading out of the building, we ended up walking into it. i'm pretty satisfied with all the stuff i ended up getting today. i've been at one of my all time highest sugar highs. wheeeeeeeeeee! then we went back to lauren's house & down to the pool. thee cutest baby was there. SO CUTE! she should be like... the cover of some baby magazine. daang, it's so embarrassing that a little baby can swim better than me & michelle. we're like five times her size & we're still learning, hah. yay for asian noodles & shirley temples. then back to the house for some arts & crafts, grownups arts & crafts though. i have pajama bottoms to show for it, hehe. i like my cow pants. i wanted to make a skirt but... i don't think cows would make a very cute skirt. other than the fact that i forgot my powerpoint at home & couldn't practice, i think i've had a pretty productive day.

my mind's almost completely lost in summer thoughts. beaches, malls, the warm sun. aaah, how i wish it was already here. only about a month to go & we're freee! (: no drama or worries for a whole three months [well, almost]. seems like summer's getting shorter every year, huh? well it is.. dang party poopers. oh well, summer's summer. i'll take what i can get (: man, i can't wait for the triple d days, bonfires, late nights out, sleepovers, shop 'til we drops, & just some fun in the sun ! finaaaally time for another dadaa reunion. yee! (:

i noticed how many smileys i have in this post. guess my mood's shifted lately. i'm just... happier these days (:

ever thought about hearing the whole damn story first?

whatever happened to listening to both sides before making that final judgement? i mean, i know i've done it before but i think it's safe to say that i've learned my lesson. it's a horrible feeling when someone lashes out at you and you're completely oblivious as to what you've done. i can't believe i just stood and listened. i just wish i had the power to fire back. i guess it was just one of the moments when you're like... wow, what the heck?

to a few kids,
you only heard one side to the damn story. ever thought about considering how unbelievably outrageous that side sounded? do i really look like the kind of person that would do that? i mean come on... i know i can be a handful at times, but really? geez. & sure they're you're friend but what reason did i ever give you to start judging me? i don't really mind that you're trying to comfort this extremely troubled person but stop fcking treating me like i'm the bad guy in all this. have you ever exchanged more than a few words to me before you heard all this false crap? sure i thought about doing the same thing & telling everyone my side of the story... but why should i? i'm not gonna stoop to the same level and try to win people over. i could care less about what people think... actually that's not true. i guess i care too much. i'd like to say that the only people that matter will always stand by my side... but the thought of having all these people against me kills me.

& if you call this being dramatic, then why the hell are you wasting your time reading it? if you feel this way, i'm sorry... just be glad i didn't go into detail i guess. it seems like oxford's this small, yet gigantic bubble that's trapping everyone within it & drama just loves to feed off of it. it's easy to tell others to just not let it get to you, but can you really ignore it if you didn't even know what the heck you're doing wrong? let me rephrase that... can really ignore all the crap that's going on if you're being accused of stuff when you're the victim?

ah, enough venting.

on another note, the past few days have pretty much been filled with high school musical sing-alongs. i love being a dork & just singing to high school musical songs with ivykins during p.e. thanks to a few wonderful faces, i still have a bit of that happy/hyper/dorky spirit left in me. i guess i've been neglecting some friends lately & i'm sorry for that... but it's kinda just my way of preventing myself from blowing up at you? i'm looking forward to summer more and more as the days go on. i can't wait 'til saturday... dadaa reunionn & possibly a sleepover. i miss these girls like crazy. i've been needing an official karaoke day for the longest time.

had a total 'john tucker must die' convo today. full out plans & everythang. mwahaha! i guess it was a little evil, but it's out of my system now (: i think i'm going through a chick flick movie phase nowadays. hah, that rhymed. it's like weekend after weekend thing. i have to go through at least one every weekend or... i'll die? i lied.. BUT it's just a habbit now. gotta love cable (:

eeek, the powerpoint for hale's due tomorrow & i'm not even halfway done. gotta get crackin'! for some reason i'm not as freaked out about this presentation as i usually am about public speechy things. maybe it's because it's all about me & i can totally fake them out like i actually know what the heck i'm talking about, hah. i still need to find a quote asdfjkl;. i'm going for something kinda catchy, yet funny, with a life lessony touch. grrr, i still needa do english homework too.

i kinda wish i went to movie night, but there's always next time. i haven't been on a comp for days, sooo let's back track to thursday. the bio fieldtrip was alright minus the super pointy and slippery rocks + water that went above my knees. l feel bad for the nguyen kids though :/ i love how karina & i spent half the time catching up on each other's lives. we even made up our own custom code names for our peeps, hah. they kinda sound like hilda&martha, but it's okay. yesterday wasn't as fun as i thought it would be. shoulda skipped tennis & hung with the kids, grr. shake your tail feather choreography just isn't for me. heck, i can't do choreography, period. i look like a handicapped chicken. buy pop show tickets from me & enjoy the show, yeah? COME COME COME! <-- i can just imagine some of you saying 'that's what she said.' ANYWAYS, i'm looking forward to summer. oh, how i miss the summer lovin' days ! today was even more boring than yesterday, geesh. i still liked it though. a fully laid back day of relaxation. currently working on the powerpoint & watching monster-in-law. i absolutely love this movie! actually, i love all of j.lo.'s movies. someone talk to me on aim (:

apparently i have multiple tennis grunts, hah. every five seconds you'd hear an AH, UGH, HAH, or oopsies from me. it's been... fun-ish so far. 'cept for the hot weather, laps, birds that look like tennis balls, & unexpected flying baseballs. i don't do well with distractions... at all. haha. i always manage to end up with something bruised & purple. i'm still pretty darn rusty, but i'm starting to get my tennis mojo back. whooo! (:

i've had a new outlook lately, a more positive & happy going attitude. well, toward MOST things. i still have some anger management issues i need to sort out, but i'm working on it. ah, english is really getting to me. i'm like 10 chapters behind & haven't been doing the questions. shizfackdamn! i'm ready to pretty much fail, but whatevs.

my sister is so facking hilarious when she gets lost. she came to pick me up at oxford after work for the first time. she's been there before but from home. sooo... she ended up getting lost for like half an hour. my brother was pretty much no help whatsoever & they just spent the whole time screaming at each other through the phone. apparently she ended up down at some beach, then to some navy/military thing, then to some dead end at a wall. man, my sister. haha

let's go to the parrrk guys !
i wanna swing as high as i can after i get shocked a million times by the static filled slides (:
eeeh, or let's just skip that & head down to the beach.
whooooo! i think i've got a slight case of summer fever! haha

buncha random stuff .

jacked from pauliner! as you'll probably figure out, i was a first time passenger on one of becca's joyrides. i was scared of getting caught, hah. give me a break though... i'm still working on the sneaking out thang. she parked in the back, i ran like an idiot, hopped in, & we cruised (: i'd say we were pretty darn successful though. dadaa was pretty much all there 'cept sonya :/ the other girl was nice though. i just... forgot who she was. so yeah.... lots of fun & freaking out + we saw some cute guy we thought we possibly knew... unfortunately, it turns out he was a smoker :/ man, it's weird to hear my voice on videocam. do i really sound like that? haha

YESTERDAY! was a blast. spent the day at disneyland with the cousins for michelle's birthday. before you start thinking i'm a bad daughter for not spending the day with my mom... let me inform you that all the parents chose to go to the casino to eat and gamble. i'm not so bad now, am i? we hit all the major rides multiple times & pigged out like... well, like pigs. churros, frozen strawberry lemonade, fish & chips, candy, popcorn, soda. mwahahaha. i'm definitely registering my birthday for a free ticket. hehe. summer birthday, WHOO !

TODAY! was an okay day, hah. so many dang subs though, geesh. hated the quiz in geo but the rest of the day went pretty smoothly. geo, bio, hale, p.e, english, span, then choir. choir was crazy with jess. haha. i'm telling you, her innocent look is such a disguise. she's just pure evil. i still love her though. tennis was fun!...ish. hah. explain why we need to run a mile a day again? this aint track foo! i lost my tennis mojo :/ balls flew everywhere but where i wanted it to go. plenty of time to regain that mojo though (:

just 26 more days.

i found myself youtubing a walk to remember today. i only say a few parts of it though cuz i got tired of searching for the diff parts. this is probably my 4th time watching it, yet it never gets old. i just love that movie (: Landon started off as a bad boy but actually turns out to be extremely sweet, especially to Jamie. he's just one of those guys that every girl tends to fall in love with because of his adorable character in the movie... not so much his looks. too bad guys like this only exist in movies & fairytales, huh?

biology is actually getting tolerable these days... now that morrissey's kinda been laid back. unfortunately sitting in the front forces me to stay awake. who knows, maybe my grade will improve. in p.e., we ran a mile & played lacrose as usual. i actually participated today though. the sticking-your-butt-out-&-running in-circles technique really helps to block the opponent from getting the ball (: spanish wasn't that great. it was just another day with matic & her weirdness. cluster pretty much sucked without everyone. only kyler, kevin, & i stayed + a few of koreans & the uhm... socially challenged group, which made it so dang boring. no erickson tomorrow or monday, YEEE !

sometimes i think it's all just for revenge.
& other times i think i'm just being stupid.

yet, i still hope you'll prove me wrong on this one.

for yoshi (:

I was browsing through my usual quote site & came across this photo. Kinda lame, but it caught my eye. I thought it kinda pertained to our convo earlier today. No more settling for second best. No more moping over guys. & no more wasting our wishes on idiots, deal? (:

& still count down the days...

i found out that there's a possibility that my grandma [my one and only remaining grandparent] may be diagnosed with leukemia. when i found out, i don't think my reaction was what it should have been. my first thought was, shiz... another reason for our stupid family to start gossiping and freaking out about when we don't even know for sure. i mean yeah, this is a reasonable time to freak out and all but i have this one uncle that lives in texas that loves to add his own spice and seasoning to stories. in no time the rumor will progress into something like... "she only has a a week left to live and needs a special herb medicine that'll cost 1234567890!" another thing you should know about this side of my family is that they're big on the superstition crap. ghosts, spirits from beyond the grave, they believe in it all >.<>




just twenty-eight days left.

i was having the best dream until some idiot continually called the dang house phone and wouldn't get the clue that no one wanted to pick up the phone. so good that i wish there was another word to describe it other than just a dream. when i think of a dream i think of something that's neutral between a great great dream and a nightmare. why does a horrible one deserve it's own word and a great one doesn't? i think i'll call it a gream just 'cause i can't think of a better word and i don't care how lame i sound at the moment. i just didn't wanna wake up. well... i couldn't. BUT even if i had enough strength to get up, i wouldn't have. dang phone was ringing off the hook though. gosh dang >.<>

yesterday's picnic was BORING AS FACK-ish. well i guess it wasn't entirely horrible. my mom lied... there weren't lots of games :/ the only things they had were a bounce house/obstacle course thingy, horseshoe throwing, & a jungle gym for kids. we were so excited when we saw horses across the parking lot, so we powerwalk over there only to find out that those ladies owned them. they then told us to walk a LITTLE down the road to the place where you can rent one which turned out to be a long ass way to walk. we walked like 3/4 of the dang circle until we reached that place. on top of that, we found out it was 40 dollars an hour to rent a horse and we had to make reservations at least a day prior to our visit. we ended up taking tons of pictures with these cool looking trees (: then... came back for seconds & thirds of ice cream from the catering thingy. once we got back to my house, we were pretty much bored out of our minds soooo... i decided to take 'em over to the new FOREVER XXI @ the anaheim plaza. aaaah, I FINALLY MADE IT THERE ! 04.02.09 <-- my first adventure in that ginormous paradise. it was like heaven to my chinky little asian eyes. so much to choose from, so little to spend :/ i ended up trying on like 10 things and leaving with only three. it's okaaay though, i'll come back later for a second round (: we ended up getting a free scarf [well, me & lauren.. linda didn't want one] cuz they couldn't find the price in their system. that guy was one clueless fellah... he

actually asked us what to do with it. finders keepers, HAH! we decided to get our butts outta there before they ended up charging us for the scarves & head over to baskin robbins. yummm (: it was all perfect timing too. right when we finished ordering, my dad picked us up & we feasted on KFC.

what i like about you. it's still one of my favorite shows even though it was cancelled way back when. sometimes it's like... my life relates to it in the weirdest ways. holly likes vince --> he's busy with other chicks --> he likes her --> she's with ben. well not exactly similar, but my life's kinda similar. when i see holly & val, i think of me & my sis. crazy gals with stories to exchange & weird conversations.

unfortunately, today was the last day of testing. breakfast day didn't go as great as chocolate covered strawberries/sandwiches day, but it's okay. we'll improve our lists for next year. can't believe i spent the whole hour with last minute erickson homework and she didn't even check it. that meanybobeany! on the other hand, i finally got an "A" on that stupid essay. well, A- to be exact... but still. i'm happy (: kinda strage though. of all essays, i thought this was the crappiest one seeing as though i didn't even read my stories. maybe the BS-ness finally got me to write commentaries instead of all that concrete i usually write.

i wish my two friends would work this feud of theirs out. i guess feud wouldn't be the right word to describe their little quarrel, but it sounds better than saying 'fight,' dontcha think?

mommy's work picnic tomorrow. my parents haven't had any traditional picnics in thee longest time. in the past few years both of their companies have had their picnics at an amusement park. this year, my mom's co. decided to go traditional & make theirs at some park that have pre-planned events. i'm hoping for the traditional potato sack races, balloon tosses, hooli-hoop contests, & prizes. whee! i'm finally tall enough & semi-skilled enough to pwn those little rascals. MWAHAHA!