feels like insomnia, oh woaah.

i sound like kelly. haha. but my sleeping pattern's really been off lately, which explains why i'm blogging at 2 oclock in the morning. i guess that's how i know summer's really hit. it's kind of depressing how two of my closest friends are out of town, one moved so far away, some are preoccupied with summer plans, & i am pretty much rideless when people do wanna hang out. this is the one time i actually miss school :/ i'm so unbelievably bored these days. someone [preferrably a licensed someone] save me?

one more week until i turn the big one-six. the sound of it has an old grown up ring to it. i kinda like it. but i honestly still feel like the same little girl that can't get enough of gummybears & squeals like a chicken when something scares the bageezers out of me. i'm excited to see my oxnerds & other girlies again though (: decided to do a separate hangout for oxnerds & nonoxnerds though, just for the sake of keeping the awkwardness as minimal as possible.

i think i hear fireworks? someone out there's a little anxious for the fourth of july... i think this might be a lonely july fourth for me this year :/ parents are going to parties & meeting up with my dad's old friends from the airforce. brother's working. sister might be hanging out with her friends. then there's me, a licenseless almost 16 year old girl, trapped inside her house for the night. fun, eh? i think i'll just sit on the bench on my balcony & watch the fireworks go off at disneyland. it's a pretty good view from there actually, minus the couple of trees obstructing part of them. i wish anaheim didn't band fireworks. i never understood why they do. i remember playing with those firework stick thingies back when i was a kid. now i'm terrified of the sparks from those things.. but i used to love dancing around in circles with a sparking stick in each hand waving them around & watching the sparks follow.