whatever happened to listening to both sides before making that final judgement? i mean, i know i've done it before but i think it's safe to say that i've learned my lesson. it's a horrible feeling when someone lashes out at you and you're completely oblivious as to what you've done. i can't believe i just stood and listened. i just wish i had the power to fire back. i guess it was just one of the moments when you're like... wow, what the heck?
to a few kids,
you only heard one side to the damn story. ever thought about considering how unbelievably outrageous that side sounded? do i really look like the kind of person that would do that? i mean come on... i know i can be a handful at times, but really? geez. & sure they're you're friend but what reason did i ever give you to start judging me? i don't really mind that you're trying to comfort this extremely troubled person but stop fcking treating me like i'm the bad guy in all this. have you ever exchanged more than a few words to me before you heard all this false crap? sure i thought about doing the same thing & telling everyone my side of the story... but why should i? i'm not gonna stoop to the same level and try to win people over. i could care less about what people think... actually that's not true. i guess i care too much. i'd like to say that the only people that matter will always stand by my side... but the thought of having all these people against me kills me.
& if you call this being dramatic, then why the hell are you wasting your time reading it? if you feel this way, i'm sorry... just be glad i didn't go into detail i guess. it seems like oxford's this small, yet gigantic bubble that's trapping everyone within it & drama just loves to feed off of it. it's easy to tell others to just not let it get to you, but can you really ignore it if you didn't even know what the heck you're doing wrong? let me rephrase that... can really ignore all the crap that's going on if you're being accused of stuff when you're the victim?
ah, enough venting.
on another note, the past few days have pretty much been filled with high school musical sing-alongs. i love being a dork & just singing to high school musical songs with ivykins during p.e. thanks to a few wonderful faces, i still have a bit of that happy/hyper/dorky spirit left in me. i guess i've been neglecting some friends lately & i'm sorry for that... but it's kinda just my way of preventing myself from blowing up at you? i'm looking forward to summer more and more as the days go on. i can't wait 'til saturday... dadaa reunionn & possibly a sleepover. i miss these girls like crazy. i've been needing an official karaoke day for the longest time.
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