here come the cavities.

I think sonya & i did pretty well for just 2-ish hours. I'm happy (: It was a bit awkward with all those other kids, but i'm glad i saw sana again. I haven't seen her since what...the end of seventh grade? This one lady pissed the heck out of me though. Until the day we turn eighteen, we are NOT too old for trick-or-treating fool! Maan, i'm poopity pooped from all that walking.

So a couple of my friends are going through one of those rough bumps in their friendship & it's all over a guy. The thing is, I've heard you BOTH say over and over that friendship will always be more important than a guy and yet... he's the reason why you guys are doing this. To the one that feels hurt and betrayed: she didn't mean to hurt you but she didn't want you to find out from another person. if you had found out later on, you probably would've still been pissed off at her...but more because she didn't tell you. isn't it better that you heard it from her rather than through some gossip going around? I love you both like sisters, but it's hard hearing both sides knowing that it's because of that boy. both of you have asked me 'omg did you tell her?' or that type of thing. the answer is NO i haven't. Can you two at least just talk to each and try to work things out, just telling each other what you both had told me instead of acting like you're both 'okay' with it cuz obviously, you're not.

tomorrow's halloween (:

I remember waaay back in the day when I used to be so freaking excited about halloween, but now the excitement's kind of fading away :/ I miss having that 'omg i can't wait to dress up and get all that candy' feeling & just being a kid. I don't think I've dressed up for the last three years, but this year I thought, 'hey, why not?' Freaaaking stores are getting rich from poor kids who just wanna have fun, i mean seriously...$50 for a costume? jeez. Since I'm so asian & cheap i'm just gonna borrow pauline's lovely homemade costume [which you'll just have to wait 'til tomorrow to see]. I hope there aren't gonna be any funky malfunctions with it though. That wouldn't be too good >.<>

Gosh dang, life's been kind of a blur the past two weeks or so. I've just been so out of it lately, not to mention extremely confused about things. I probably snapped once or twice [or 12345 more times] at a few of you, sorry about that. I guess the high school experience is finally starting to kick in. I always tell my friends that go through something like this that it's not worth it and to try to just forget about it, but I can't seem to follow my own advice. My mind keeps going round and round with the 'what ifs' and 'what will happens'. I feel like it's deja vu & that i'm kind of just allowing this to happen all over again. Like a friend of mine said, it's like a game & we're just being played. It's kind of funny cuz I know what's coming my way, and yet... I'm still willing to maybe, possibly take a chance on it. But to those three or four people I've been really venting to lately [like daily] THANK YOU FOR LISTENING <3

choir clinic ;

Our performance turned out better than I thought it would be, but the whole thing in general was kinda sorta super boring. So when this one choir went up on stage [i think it was anaheim or katella?], I hear a bunch of people start whispering. Then after like five minutes, I thought...omg, is that girl pregnant? So Steffi and I were trying to figure that out throughout the song. I felt kind of mean for saying that, afterall she could've just been...'well fed'? So after the dude finished telling them what they could do better, she turned and BAM... the answer was pretty dang obvious. It's funny when I think about it, 'cuz it's just our school that finds pregnancy at our age weird...which frankly, is just sad. It's like at any other school, this would be a normal everyday thing, to see a pregnant girl at such a young age going to school.

No cluster next year?! :0
So Mrs. Levoit had ANOTHER talk with us about cluster/enrichment and said there's a slim to no chance of keeping cluster next year :/ She said the other two likely choices are 8 classes PER day, with an elective to replace cluster or having the four-by-four schedule. I hope they end up keeping cluster man. After like two years, i finally started to bond with my cluster buddies!

wow, learned alot about you today.

thanks for telling the world & being a jerk about it.
dang i feel like an idiot.

I'm pretty tired out after a long ventful talk with a bestie, so i'll keep this short. Today was the pasta dinner. I swear that hogan just wants to get mad at us, he's like out to get us or something. The opener wasn't even...the opener. At least the pasta was WARM this year. Things are getting awkward with some friends again & I have no idea what's going on between us. I guess we're just drifting apart again. Overall, this just wasn't a good day. Well, i guess it wasn't TOTALLY horrible, but pretty darn close.

Yesterday was a good, but pretty boring day. I walked into bio this morning & boy did morrissey look PISSED OFF. Stupid bus was late, but that's nothing new. Took me a while before I found out that it was cuz of Hogan. She went on a rampage & called hoshi after stamping our agendas. muahaha that man's gonna get itt (: So Hayley & I had a little talk about stuff during P.E. & exchanged a few secrets. Fun stuff. Cluster was kind of a bore compared to last time. I heard we might not have cluster next year! :0 & Levoit's totally all for it, too. I don't really blame her though, we aren't exactly...the most well-behaved kids. So I came home today & all of a sudden I see this super bright orange thing on my bed and realized it was our choir shirts. I forgot all about it for a while there. I look like a construction worker in that thing >.<

Things went down a bit better today (: Kelly & I started off the day with some good old music before getting to school, and once again she got 'how do i breathe' stuck in my head for the rest of the day. As always, geometry was just plain boring. After Erickson finished her speech about good behavior for guests, English wasn't ALL that bad. I couldn't stop laughing at what Marcel said about his least favorite poem. Choir, choir, choir...Hogan's speeches are seriously getting old. He says the same freaking thing over and over. I guess it wasn't so bad today though. So around six-ish my dad called to tell my sister to make rice for dinner [what do you expect? we're asian.], who felt the need to wake me up from my fantastic daily nap and show me the gross mutated species of three day old rice. MADE ME WANT TO BARF. It looked like nasty cotton candy porridge with bits of rice krispies >.<>Hayley and I started thinking about how different things would be after high school & how different things would be. The 'hot' guys with beer bellies? Nerds somehow becoming super hot? I wonder if we'll still even keep in touch. I guess we'll just have to wait & see what happens at our ten year reunion.